Saturday, August 29, 2009

Summer and Surrender


A lot has Happen since I last blogged.. The summer was fast and furious... While I love to travel, I am glad to be back and starting a routine.
My man and I celebrated 25 years. We able to go to Alaska. We had such a great time. The scenery, it so beautiful. After seeing the beautiful scenery, You have to say There is a GOD! But we have no idea of how big He is. Just seeing his creation of Alaska, I can't wait to see heaven.. I know it will truly be,Out of This World!!
I also, was able to go to a Deeper Still Conference, Beth Moore, Kay Author, and Priscilla Shiver. I went but I have to be honest. I felt like Why? I like them but I have been to many of conferences, so I'm not sure why I was going. I felt like I have been out of it, Not sure what God wanted me to do.. So the first night I was there, during the music, ( which I love to sing) but during this time, I was talking to God and telling Him( like He didn't know) that I did not want to sing something that I did not mean. I begged him to speak to me.. Well, He did, Kay A. stood up and began to read in the book of Hebrews. " Man, shall not live by bread alone but by every word out of the mouth of God... She cont. but the Holy Spirit stopped me with this verse and said to me, Lisa, What are you living by? Anger, Unmet expectations, fear, friends, circumstances, etc. or by His word?... He then build on that the whole weekend with the other speakers. This has been a daily reminder.. Lisa, What are you living by? I want to focus on something else or Someone else , He reminds me of ... It is by His word! I am so grateful to him for meeting me right were I am but I have to tell you, He hasn't left me there.
A while back, our church showed a video, of Penn and Teller, the illusionist, Penn had been given a Bible by a man after his show, so he blogged about it, ( they are professing atheist) he said, How much would you have to hate someone not to share Jesus with them, If you truly believe that He was the only way to Heaven. If a truck was coming, wouldn't you yell or do whatever it took to help save that person.... I ask God, Who is it that He wanted me to share with? He said Your cousins, well, I dolove my cuz, but family can be hard so I fought Him on it for about a week..
Then after He spoke to me at this conference, I told Him I wanted to take risk for Him and step out of the boat, what do you want me to do ,Lord? He said I want you to share me with your Face Book friends! I wrestled with Him for about 3 weeks. I kept rationalizing it, saying God, most of these people I met in church, they have known you longer than I have, some are pastors and all are better writers than me .Come On ,Lord, Not me! Fear set in, wondering what others would think.. God said.. What are you living by,Lisa? So I surrendered and It is amazing How He has met me every step of the way. I prayed for all who would read it, that they would know him.. I do not know what God is doing on their end but I will tell you, He who began a good work in me,WILL continue til the day of Jesus and I am Living for that!!